RED PILL OR BLUE PILL?

Take the Red Pill and go back to 1985 where I can make so many changes in my life, make different decisions on where I was heading into adulthood, different jobs and friends, and don't get messed around with. That would be nice.
Or...
Take the Blue pill and jump backward to 2020 where I am 45 years old and be extremely rich. I could sort out a new wheelchair, get myself a pair of legs, get fitter, move away from where we are right now.
And more importantly, don't screw up with Candy.
My life is sheer hell now.
I think I know what pill I will take.