MISTRESS OF PAIN

On a daily basis I am always at the beginning of a 10 right through to a 15. My phantom pains are killing me and due to the extra cold weather and awkward sleeping position in my wheelchair, I'm normally at a high of 14. Pain meds do bugger all but all my appointments with the pain clinic is always getting canceled, even before this pandemic and lockdown this year.
At times when the pain is too much, I'm at the screaming and crying stage. I've just got to put up with this crap until the day I die..